Finally all moved in to the new place. Gas is on, power is on, cat is settled. I've been on the prowl for some sweet vintage furniture. My neighbors kitty is my kitties new best friend... its pretty freakin cute.
that's all for now. Looking forward to thanksgiving since I missed it last year!! May go visit with my ex's family in cali over the weekend.... haven't really made up my mind. It's kinda cold for a cali trip. I turned my heat on today. Burr.
Buh byes for now
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
confuzzled
I've got a case of the confuseds. And the crankys.
We had an East Coast style clam bake on Saturday. It was freakin awesome. Over 100 pounds of seafood. Clams, crabs, shrimp, lobster, mussels, and some brats! We had like 50-60 people there and everyone was stuffed and happy. I baked white russian and my infamous maple bacon cupcakes. We are officially making it a yearly tradition. The only gloomy part of the night was the fact one of my best friends is now dating a dude that could be my ex's doppleganger. I know a lot of people lump guys with beards and long hair into the "mountain man" group, but really... it's uncanny. He asked why I was giving him stink eye.... I was honest and he didn't really know what to say about that. I'm hoping I either get over seeing one of my best friends makeout with a dude that looks like my ex, or that it doesn't work out so I don't have to get creeped out anymore.
So sunday morning was odd in it's own way. I started out the morning thrifting with a friend... it may be my new favorite activity. I scored a few rad things for my new place (signed my lease!!!) and even found this vintage couch I may have to go buy. But before my day could really even get going my euphoria of spending time with a good friend was ruined by yet another ex. This time it's the ex I recently became friends/cooking buddies with again. The whole debacle erupted into a screaming match, and I don't think we are going to be friends anymore. Apparently his crazy doesn't hide as well when he mixes alcohol and pent up emotions. I told him we can give it another go in 2 more years and see if he can not be an ass then. We'll see.... my guess is NO!!
I decided at that point to round out by theme by meeting up with yet another ex! This one is from about 9 years ago and was my first serious boyfriend in college. We have remained close friends all this time. He has watched me grow up over the years and our relationship is probably the weirdest/most comfortable/saddest relationship of all. He took me out for a celebratory drink for signing my lease... which lead to bar hopping, appetizers at one place, dinner at another, dessert at another, more drinks somewhere else, and meeting up with a bunch of his friends I knew from way back. That turned into fire side and pinball dance party at a friends house which then turned into me waking up awful far from home on a work day. I forgot how much I enjoy these people and this side of my life I don't always acknowledge. Those of you who have known me since before college probably remember the phase in my life when I dated him. The time where I struggled between my bohemian artsy side and my scottsdale swanky side. While I can identify with both worlds, I can't pick a side. I felt exactly the same way last night. Riding around in my ex's new mercedes, drinking $14 martinis, heading back to multi-million dollar homes in Paradise Valley...... it all felt too comfortable again. As much as I fight being like my dad, money talks to me the same way it does to him. All the while I can still remain the person that makes fun of douche bags drinking $14 martinis. Maybe I'm just the type of girl who can be more than one person..... maybe one side of me isn't more "real" or "true" than the other. Maybe it's the gemini in me. Maybe I'm 26 and still don't have a firm grasp on who I'm going to be when I "grow up." All I know is it felt awful nice to snuggle up under a big blanket on the sofa and feed each other wine and cheese. The sort of intimacy we have only comes from a decade of friendship and love. sigh.
He invited me to Cali for Thanksgiving with the family. Thankfully I am moving next weekend, so it was an easy out. I need to clear my head and decide if I want to open the door to that side of my life again. It was awful nice catching up with people I hadn't seen in years...... but with that life comes a whole slue of issues I'd long forgotten. Maybe we will finally stop joking about ending up together and finally do it. Until then, my poor little head is a confused and a little damaged.
We had an East Coast style clam bake on Saturday. It was freakin awesome. Over 100 pounds of seafood. Clams, crabs, shrimp, lobster, mussels, and some brats! We had like 50-60 people there and everyone was stuffed and happy. I baked white russian and my infamous maple bacon cupcakes. We are officially making it a yearly tradition. The only gloomy part of the night was the fact one of my best friends is now dating a dude that could be my ex's doppleganger. I know a lot of people lump guys with beards and long hair into the "mountain man" group, but really... it's uncanny. He asked why I was giving him stink eye.... I was honest and he didn't really know what to say about that. I'm hoping I either get over seeing one of my best friends makeout with a dude that looks like my ex, or that it doesn't work out so I don't have to get creeped out anymore.
So sunday morning was odd in it's own way. I started out the morning thrifting with a friend... it may be my new favorite activity. I scored a few rad things for my new place (signed my lease!!!) and even found this vintage couch I may have to go buy. But before my day could really even get going my euphoria of spending time with a good friend was ruined by yet another ex. This time it's the ex I recently became friends/cooking buddies with again. The whole debacle erupted into a screaming match, and I don't think we are going to be friends anymore. Apparently his crazy doesn't hide as well when he mixes alcohol and pent up emotions. I told him we can give it another go in 2 more years and see if he can not be an ass then. We'll see.... my guess is NO!!
I decided at that point to round out by theme by meeting up with yet another ex! This one is from about 9 years ago and was my first serious boyfriend in college. We have remained close friends all this time. He has watched me grow up over the years and our relationship is probably the weirdest/most comfortable/saddest relationship of all. He took me out for a celebratory drink for signing my lease... which lead to bar hopping, appetizers at one place, dinner at another, dessert at another, more drinks somewhere else, and meeting up with a bunch of his friends I knew from way back. That turned into fire side and pinball dance party at a friends house which then turned into me waking up awful far from home on a work day. I forgot how much I enjoy these people and this side of my life I don't always acknowledge. Those of you who have known me since before college probably remember the phase in my life when I dated him. The time where I struggled between my bohemian artsy side and my scottsdale swanky side. While I can identify with both worlds, I can't pick a side. I felt exactly the same way last night. Riding around in my ex's new mercedes, drinking $14 martinis, heading back to multi-million dollar homes in Paradise Valley...... it all felt too comfortable again. As much as I fight being like my dad, money talks to me the same way it does to him. All the while I can still remain the person that makes fun of douche bags drinking $14 martinis. Maybe I'm just the type of girl who can be more than one person..... maybe one side of me isn't more "real" or "true" than the other. Maybe it's the gemini in me. Maybe I'm 26 and still don't have a firm grasp on who I'm going to be when I "grow up." All I know is it felt awful nice to snuggle up under a big blanket on the sofa and feed each other wine and cheese. The sort of intimacy we have only comes from a decade of friendship and love. sigh.
He invited me to Cali for Thanksgiving with the family. Thankfully I am moving next weekend, so it was an easy out. I need to clear my head and decide if I want to open the door to that side of my life again. It was awful nice catching up with people I hadn't seen in years...... but with that life comes a whole slue of issues I'd long forgotten. Maybe we will finally stop joking about ending up together and finally do it. Until then, my poor little head is a confused and a little damaged.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
meow meow meow meowwww
My cat is a spaz.... just putting that out there. I haven't been home much for the last few weeks so when I walk in the door he is all over me like white on rice. We are playing a fun game of fetch with his favorite stuffed toy right now. So cute! I'm thinking about getting another kitty.... not because I really want one but because I've been working 60 hours a week and only sleeping at my own place 4-5 nights a week. He really needs the company once I move. Him and my roomie's cat have become best buddies, and I'm afraid he will be sad after the move. Luckily Aaron (new awesome next door neighbor) just got an adorable kitten a few weeks ago so we are going to take turns having playdates. If that's not enough it's back to the kitten stage with a new addition to our family! I forgot how annoying kittens are until I'm around Aarons. My cat has WAY mellowed out, even if he is still a spaz.
Oh yeah, I'm a mommy now. My friend Meleah had two ADORABLE babies (see above) and I'm the honorary second-mommy now that daddy moved out haha. We decided to raise them with a "my two moms" thing going on. I had apparently forgotten how much work babies are (worse than the kittens mentioned above!).... especially at 6am after we drink too much wine <3
Other than playing hard on weekends and working hard all week not much is new in my life. Just buckling down and preparing for the move. I never realized how much responsibility having your own place is. I'm having to deal with utilities and moving and shopping and decorating and security all on my own. It's a lot of work, but I can't wait to see how it all turns out. Hopefully my crappy pseudo boyfriend takes a day off work to help me move..... otherwise my crappy ex boyfriend will be helping. Neither option seems that fun.... why can't I have family members with trucks?!
Seems as if my blog traffic has slowed down quite a bit.... I either need to be more interesting or post some half-naked pics of me and my ladies! ;-)
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