I'm yours...

I can honestly say I'm head-over-heels in love for the first time in a very long time. Things have fallen into place, no where near what I had in mind, but better. I am in the process of officially moving in with the boyfriend and I've decided to let go of all these fears I have and just enjoy it. You can't beat falling asleep in the arms of someone who loves you, and waking up to their kisses every morning. So we have a shitty history, who doesn't, right? It's time to embrace the good for how good it is, and start letting go of the bad. So I'm giving him the power to hurt me... and its scary..... but the high of falling more in love every time I see him is better than the emotional fence I tend to put around myself when shit gets too real. We are moving to Korea together, we are starting a new chapter together, and I'm ecstatic. I'm not perfect (by a long shot) and neither is he, but he gives me butterflies so I'm just gonna run with it. There, it's all out in the open now. I'm in love and all the mushy gushy things that go along with it. Woo.

Now, on not such a happy note I still loathe my job. I was starting to warm up to it, but yeah, I'm over it once again. I'm going back to my old work (the school I taught at) tomorrow and I'm so afraid to see what I'm missing out on this year. Yeah, Korea is great but I'd rather be there with my friends and kids I adore. I'm sure I'll adore new kids over there.... but.... I love the familiar. Maybe my old boss will remember how amazing I am when she sees me and give me a job doing something (anything!) until I leave for Korea. I know it's a long shot but a girl can dream, right? Meep.

Well, thats about all I have in me tonight friends. I'll try and blog again more.... it's been hard to get online alone to blog.... for some reason I like blogging alone. I'm weird. smoochies.

Ghosty!

I'm leaving in the morning to go ghost hunting in Jerome! Kristin and I are going away for a couple days for her birthday. It should be really fun, we are going GHOST HUNTING at an old mental hospital. I LOVE ghosts and anything paranormal. I doubt we will see/hear/feel anything but it's a fun experience anyway, ya know? We will be freaking each other out, I'm sure.

Anyway, plans are moving forward for the Korea move. Have I mentioned that yet? Can't remember. Yeah, Im planning on moving to Korea to teach, the first week of November. I'm super excited and nervous all at the same time. It's the fear of the unknown that gets me. I know how hard it can be living abroad, so I'm not too worried about that part, I'm mentally prepared for it. I'm worried I wont like the job, though. I like kids, I like teaching, I like asian babies, but..... I'm not sure about the combo haha. We'll see. A lot of people do it, so it can't be all bad. Fingers crossed.

easy like sunday morning...

Life is pretty good. Haven't been home in like a week, hence the lack of blogging. Plans are still moving forward with korea. I have been talking to my friend that is already there and she is getting me excited about the possibilities. I feel like I'm in a sort of limbo though... Which sucks. I have to kill three months before we are leaving.. It seems like such wasted time. I'm bored, I guess. Meh.

Have I mentioned I loathe my new job? I think that's why I'm so anxious to leave. I don't really want to get another new job just to quit in 2 months... But I hate working where I am... Ick!

Also, things are going pretty well with the boy. My mom thinks since the good outweighs the bad right now I should just let it ride. I'm feeling that feeling again that things aren't right though. Certain things just don't add up. Maybe I'm just having trust issues... Who knows. Time will tell, but I hope it tells soon considering I'm thinking about moving in with him... And moving across the world.