Things are looking up here in Korea. My boyfriend found a job. That's the best news I've heard in so long. He still needs to make sure it's a good job (they pay on time and treat employees ok), but it seems like everything is falling into place. It's amazing what this did for my morale. I felt like a new person walking through the streets of Seoul. I saw so many things I never noticed before because I was so busy in my own head all the time. It's been exhausting spending so many hours of my day looking for jobs for him, emailing him, worrying about him, and focusing on being miserable. It's like a huge weight was lifted. I really enjoyed Korea today. I just kind of soaked in the busy street, the noises, the smells, the faces of the people. It was enjoyable. I need a camera. So many little moments I want to record.
Alicia and I went to the movies tonight. We saw Time Travelers Wife. It was really good. Cried my eyes out as expected. I am really glad I took the boyfriends advice and read the book first. It must have been foreigners night out. We saw so many white folk. haha. I have figured out the "foreigner nod." When you walk past another person it's weird to strike up a conversation (it doesn't happen) but it's polite to nod. Just kind of like "hey man, I see you, I know how you feel" haha. I wonder if other cultures in America do the same thing. Like the Asian nod when they see another Asian person. Hmmm. Food for thought. We went to a starbucks tonight. It's amazingly like stepping back into the US. The lighting is the same, the smell, the furniture, the food. It was amazing. That was one of my perks for the day.
I want to start taking notes on the funny things I see.
I love examining other cultures. I've done it a little bit since I've been here, but I havent gone out too much, so my contact has been kind of limited. When I do go out it's just interesting to see how Koreans interact with each other, and how they respond to me. I need a notebook or something along with the camera. I want to be able to have a record of some sort of the feelings I experienced, what I saw, and how the world felt to me at that moment.
So, in conclusion. Things are looking brighter and better today.
I have a bad habit (well, I have a lot...) that I'm not sure what to do about. I hate explaining things to people. But not all people, just certain ones. Mostly people I'm closest to. Maybe from always working with children and I always have to explain every little thing. Maybe I'm burnt out on it, or maybe I'm just not a patient person. I hate explaining to people things going on in my life though. i'm not really a guarded person, I'll divulge just about anything. I get annoyed at all the questions that go along with explaining things I think. I want to paint a picture for someone, and I want them to understand what I'm trying to say. Or sometimes I just want to give certain information about something so I don't want to have the person dig deeper. I'm not sure if I should try and be more forthcoming, or avoid situations where I have to explain things.
I've been avoiding talking to a few people because I don't want to tell them whats going on over here. I don't really know why. I feel like I'm seeing so much I couldn't properly paint the picture for them. I feel like I'd explain things in a way they wouldn't understand. I dunno. I'm weird.
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